WOW! Dr. Allen is preaching from Ephesians on marriage and relationships. Today he talked about what the man needs. I understand totally that a wife should be submissive to her husband. But that husband should be a godly man and love his wife. At this point I don't have a husband, thank goodness. During the sermon this morning Jeff is sitting there speaking Amen's and "that's right." I think we all need to step back and take a real good look at ourselves. I am going to work on that starting today. I want to see where I am so wrong in this relationship between Jeff and I. I really do and I want to work on those faults. Like I said, Jeff and I are not married, though he acts like we are. Anyway, he made a comment during football season that really turned me off to the whole idea. Jackie was at one of Michael's games and ask Jeff if he and I had remarried. Jeff told me he told him "no, hell no." Well, that blew it for me. My feelings for Jeff have gone downhill from there and I don't see any repairing it. I just don't know what to do anymore. I honestly don't want a relationship right now. My main concern for myself is to get to know God a whole lot better than I do and try to live the way He wants me to.